I was at a social event with Ming, and I’d dressed up a lil bit. I prepared by resting beforehand and psyching myself out to do a big, new thing. Usually I socialize with traumatized transqueer autistic white people here in Oregon. But these were mostly professional cis-het POC. It was a treat to be… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? Someone on a social media site said recently… she’s a 48 year old woman with a few skills for homesteading like sewing, gardening, foraging, and herbalism. But she wanted ideas of what more to learn. She mentioned she sews but doesn’t make her own patterns, as if she was… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? Can we talk about what violence feels like? Violence is scary; I feel fear when I face violence. I want to run away. But the creepy part is being stuck with violence, when it’s connected to my housing, medications, income, or anything I need. Violence is the opposite of… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? I’m thinking about more ways to say no. You know some people including autistic people struggle with social norms. And some people are anxious. My darling spouse Ming has a language-related learning disability. Sometimes word chunks and example sentences can help when we’re under stress. This is less of… Read More »
This post “worship” is a letter to a friend. Dear community, Thank you for letting me know you don’t consent to be deified. I’m sorry I deified you. That’s how I love by default: bahkti. I can love you in other ways, like you’re useful. Or I can try loving you like you’re just funny… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? I made a new zine, topical testosterone for bottom growth. It’s short and handwritten– I made it in Astoria mostly at the library. I’m up for trades, or down for trades, if you would like to read it. Ming took pictures of my hands while I bound a copy,… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? I was very slowly walking up some steep stairs this morning, thinking about how disability is a spectrum. That’s an idea floating around already… but I want to mention it because I encounter many people who don’t know disability is a spectrum, and they do some low key crappy… Read More »
Dear sweetheart, I’m sorry if someone called you lazy. Asking for help is sacred. I want to be respectful and a safe person to ask for help. Also a safe person to say no to. The idea of being lazy doesn’t worry me too much because I’m disabled, and I opt out of capitalism productivity… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? My friend finished my Strawberry skirt. I feel happy like I want to tell you the story. Strawberry skirt Once upon a time, my chosen family member was cleaning out their childhood room and offered me their fabric scraps. We went through the whole box together. I got nice… Read More »
Hello, reader. How’ve you been? I’ve been thinking about value judgments and how I’ve gone through life trying to classify things as good or bad. In fact, I’ve been desperate at times, to get a grasp of a situation by categorizing it. But long term, binaries hurt me. “Please, relieve the tension of my lack… Read More »