Hello, reader. Are you menstruating? How are you doing? I’m having the period from hell. So drained. Zero stars, would not menstruate again. You know, I’ve been having my period (off and on) since I was ten years old. That’s 38 years. Can I be done now? In a way I’m afraid of menopause. I’m… Read More »
Hello, reader. I’m ready to come out to you; I want you to know I’m transgender. I am not a man. Yet I’m not a woman. I’m nonbinary gender; this is an important part of who I am. I’ve mentioned being trans and having a queer trans spirituality in this blog. But today I want… Read More »
Hello, reader. Are you confident? I am becoming more so, as I’m less afraid of people and love myself more as a grown-ass adult. But I feel annoyed that I need to be confident in order to be taken seriously, especially in community. Being confident feels almost violent to me, especially when it’s loud; it… Read More »
“Is it ok if I grab your breasts in public?” I asked Ming. “Yes,” he said. We were sitting on a bench in our community near the main garden. I was behind Ming, my tummy on his back, spooning him, holding onto his chest with my hands. My thighs gripped his butt. “It’s ok because… Read More »
Hey, reader. How are you doing? How’s your gender these days? Do you feel empowered to be who you are, as more people are out as trans? I do! I feel binary gender break down a bit more, and I need that. Yes, there is danger from conservative people, and it hurts to see queers… Read More »
“This is hysterical,” I said, pointing to my face. It was toward the end of an argument with Ming, and we were in the kitchen. I finally took a break to pee then cook some breakfast. “I’m not saying you’re hysterical,” Ming said. “No–I know you’re not,” I replied. “I’m just saying this is what… Read More »
“How do you feel about your haircut?” my good friend asked me. This post is about what I learned by cutting my hair. “I feel like my head belongs to me for the first time in my life,” I replied. Wow, I had no idea what that long hair was doing to me. I thought… Read More »
“Will you be my body guard? Will you stand around and look tough?” I asked Ming. We were by the Willamette river at a popular exercise, dog walking, bike riding spot. Right by the rose garden. I was sitting on a bench by my darling–a huge bay laurel tree. My pants legs were rolled up,… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? I was talking to my friend about dysphoria. I was confused because I heard the terms dysphoria and dysmorphic a lot, years ago, and get them mixed up. Dysphoria vs dysmorphic? Also I was confused because my friend is the most beautiful woman in the world. Her gender is… Read More »
“When is masculinity not toxic?” Ming asked. He’d just read a fake headstone that says RIP toxic masculinity. Good question, dear. We were taking a rain walk yesterday morning, passing by our house’s main garden. Housemates made pretend headstones, some years back? One says RIP hatred. One says RIP toxic masculinity. I think another says… Read More »