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Sister Megan

Sister Megan died a few days ago.  She was an important figure in my life, though we never met in person.  We spoke on the phone, and there were a few emails.  She was 91. She was a very dear nun activist, beloved by so many.  Ming knew her because she helped run Nevada Desert… Read More »

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September

September I’m crying because it’s September again, and I have to do it without my mama again.  I love September–it’s my birth month.  But doesn’t feel possible to live through again, without her. So here I am.  Feeling the pain–doing grief.  How do I make plans?  I keep learning, changing, and moving forward.  But sometimes… Read More »

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pistachio butter

I did something that was a really big deal.  There was this pistachio butter.  I bought it in Lompoc at a farmers market with Ming and my mom.  Back when she was well and could do stuff, around two and a half years ago. I ate almost none of the pistachio butter, and it sat… Read More »

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more books

My friend Stacy Russo published another book!  It’s called Wild Librarian Bakery and Bookstore.  She publishes more books than anyone I know, and I always get excited. It’s fun to order her books from the local independent bookstore, because picking them up feels like a celebration.  This one, Wild Librarian Bakery and Bookstore, is about… Read More »

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my preferences

My preferences are good to keep in mind, if you would like to be kind to me. name It’s ok whatever name you call me, as long as it starts with Laura-Marie or River.  Sweetheart, beautiful miracle, Honeybee, cutie, and Darling Heart are ok too, depending. Peace is my preferred last name, but Taylor is… Read More »

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arcosanti gratitude

When I made a mistake and bashed my foot on a rock by the beautiful pool, only one of my toes was injured.  I could still walk, slowly, back to our room.  I didn’t fall on the weird path even though I was making poor choices.  I’d been out of drinking water for a while,… Read More »

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apricot cousin

Hey, gmorning!  I’m working on a series of songs related to family.  I rapped a new one, Apricot Cousin.  I have the strong feeling I need to talk to my departed relatives, especially my cousin who died last year, and my dad. But it felt incorrect, as it’s spring.  I associate talking to the dead… Read More »

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fast blood

Hey, I was ecstatic dancing outside to my youtube dance playlist.  I was wearing no shirt–I wore a sports bra.  It’s ok to exercise, wearing a sports bra, so I hear.  But I never did it before.  I walked outside in a skirt and bra, which I had never done before.  Felt vulnerable and slightly… Read More »

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dead letter

content warning: dead letter, super sad  Hey, I got a sad Return to Sender.  Looks like Lisa Montgomery didn’t read my letter.  I really hoped she read it, right before.  They killed her January 13th, so I’m surprised.  Maybe there was a wave of mail, at the end. I showed Ming.  “Looks like she didn’t… Read More »

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the ritual

The ritual I had on January 24th was important to me because it moved through me some feelings that I didn’t know were stuck. My friend proposed it, when I sent a mass email to ask for help around my mom’s death anniversary.  My friend is elsewhere, the one I know who seems most connected… Read More »