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health anxiety

Hello–how are you doing?  I have a lot of anxiety, including social anxiety.  A weird thing about me is I worry about the past.  But one of the worst anxieties for me is health anxiety.  It’s tied into family pain and fear of death, which can be incapacitating. The way I frame my own experiences… Read More »

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three year death anniversary

Hello, how are you doing?  It was my mom’s three year death anniversary.  I felt a lot of feelings including grief.  What a hard day to get through.  Just keep breathing, eating, and survive. My good friend elsewhere expressed sympathy, then asked how I was coping.  This friend is very smart and musical, with a… Read More »

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what’s going right

Hello, I’ve been so anxious lately.  But I’d like to take a moment to list what’s going right.  I want to trust my body, and trust other people too. trust It’s hard to trust my body and my health.  I have so many reasons to be afraid.  My dad’s heart attack, strokes, and all his… Read More »

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transgender day of remembrance

Hello, how are you doing?  Ming and I tabled zines at a transgender day of remembrance, here where we live now in Oregon.  Wow, it was intense. We make little altars wherever we go.  The only one who can protect me from sliding to death in my grief is the Mother of God.  I held… Read More »

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how to make decisions about healthcare for sick pets

Hello, how are you doing?  I’ve been thinking about how to make decisions about healthcare for sick pets.  An acquaintance on social media had a sick cat and was asking. It’s an important question, and we figure these things out on our own, too often.  Folks responded with different opinions. social media Social media gets… Read More »

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keep breathing

Hello, reader.  What’s your prayer life, lately?  What do you ask for and thank for?  I ask for help as I keep breathing.   Holy Mother, Mother of God, please bless me today to feel my feelings, work through anxiety, keep breathing, and be kind to myself and others.  Please help me trust I will… Read More »

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pregnant frog empress holding hands with death

Hello, how are you doing?  Nearly finishing up my Friendship Artalong tarot month, I embroidered a pregnant frog empress holding hands with death.  Probably that’s not something you see every day. I started at a round breast.  Then the pregnant belly.  I looked online at pics of women sitting cross legged, getting ideas for the… Read More »

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making videos

I like making videos to talk about what matters to me.  This video What is ecstatic dance? is four and a half minutes long, my attempt at a short overview, as opposed to a longer, in depth video I made about ecstatic dance last year.  Please view and share with friends. I also like making… Read More »

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rose

Hello, how are you doing?  Ming and I went to Thai food the other night.  We needed some dinner.  In the parking lot, I saw this rose. It’s like a rose my mom would grow in her garden.  When I was a kid, her favorite color was red.  When I was an adult, not sure… Read More »

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art is transcendence

Art is transcendence.  I love art as spiritual experience.  It’s a reason I’m still alive.  What else would I have done?  I’m not good at making money.  I didn’t make any people.  Art is how I live.  Art and love. I was talking about how art is transcendence with friends in a small group ministry… Read More »