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fast blood

Hey, I was ecstatic dancing outside to my youtube dance playlist.  I was wearing no shirt–I wore a sports bra.  It’s ok to exercise, wearing a sports bra, so I hear.  But I never did it before.  I walked outside in a skirt and bra, which I had never done before.  Felt vulnerable and slightly… Read More »

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dead letter

content warning: dead letter, super sad  Hey, I got a sad Return to Sender.  Looks like Lisa Montgomery didn’t read my letter.  I really hoped she read it, right before.  They killed her January 13th, so I’m surprised.  Maybe there was a wave of mail, at the end. I showed Ming.  “Looks like she didn’t… Read More »

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the ritual

The ritual I had on January 24th was important to me because it moved through me some feelings that I didn’t know were stuck. My friend proposed it, when I sent a mass email to ask for help around my mom’s death anniversary.  My friend is elsewhere, the one I know who seems most connected… Read More »

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kabocha

I love kabocha squash. This kabocha kept me kitchen company for months, and then we did the photoshoot before I cleaved it.  I am a pumpkin hugger, after all. Today my mom has been departed from the earth as a living person for one year.  Can you believe it?  What a journey I’ve done.  Can… Read More »

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graffiti witch

Hey, I made this art about a quote I like. “It is kind to ask for help. The one who cannot ask for help, cannot be trusted.” –the Nuu-chah-nulth tribe of first nation people on the Pacific West Coast, Canada/Vancouver Island That idea is important to me.  I asked some family and friends for help,… Read More »

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happy birthday to Mama

This morning I cooked of some veg sausage for Ming that had been sitting in the freezer for a while.  I was the main eater of soy sausage at our house, but I stopped eating soy in late summer.  So it was nice to cook the last three little patties, for him. I made Ming… Read More »

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weird body

Been having some health issues.  I will not tell you all about them.  Even if I tried, your head would just spin.  I have a weird body, is my conclusion. barfy Yesterday I got nauseated, amid a bunch of other issues, and I felt worried about that.  Normally I have a big appetite, and I… Read More »

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memento mori

This ATC is for a Halloween swap-bot assignment.  I’m really grateful I signed up for it.  Never knew I could do like this.  It’s blue, says memento mori, and depicts a bird skeleton. truth I have a new favorite Dorothy Day quote.  She co-started the Catholic Worker movement in 1933.  I live in community at… Read More »

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favorite language

favorite language I have this SQL dress.  The crisscrossed lines on it are SQL.  It’s fun to explain what SQL is to people who don’t know what it is. It’s also fun to read the google suggested questions and revel in their beautiful English Language Learner style. ELL is my favorite language.  SQL, not so… Read More »

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death by mountain lion

Sometimes a thing you’re scared of can be a thing you want, or vice versa.  They can turn into each other. I was afraid of death by mountain lion for so long.  First in Orange County during grad school, more than twenty years ago, at a huge park with copious mountain lion warning signs. Then… Read More »