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Disabled Resilience Permaculture

Ming and I love permaculture, and we’re disabled.  We’ve been talking for years about disabled permaculture.  I made a zine in 2020 called permaculture for a pair, which is about disabled permaculture.  We’re the only people we know talking about this concept, and we decided to change the name.  We’ve newly coined the term Disabled… Read More »

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bad books

“Don’t you go writing more of those bad books,” H said.  He was watering our garden.  I peeked my head out the door because I thought the waterer was Ming.  But it was H. “Did I write a bad book?” I asked. “Yeah, I saw that book you wrote.  Over in Freedom House, on the… Read More »

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how to be alone

Hello, how are you?  A stranger on a social media group for fat health said they need to spend some hours in public by themselves, in a city away from home, and they’re nervous about it.  They asked for advice for this situation–how to be alone in public, as a fat person. Yes, it can… Read More »

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ample movement

I started doing yoga over zoom with Ample Movement.  The teacher is incredible. clear kind helpful relaxing to listen to supportive brilliant about bodies Have I lucked out with gifted yoga teachers, throughout my life?  Yes, I have. First I did a chair yoga short class with Ample Movement on youtube. It was great, so… Read More »

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dear body

Dear body, I have written to you so many times, but this letter is overdue.  I love you unconditionally and will do whatever I can for you.  The world tells me you’re wrong, but I know you’re right.  You are unconditionally beautiful, and I honor you.  It doesn’t matter what anyone else says. Lately I… Read More »

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covid test

Hey, we got covid tested yesterday.  Never thought I would need a covid test, but I am /was some kind of sick.  Weird since I don’t go out–I don’t even go to the store lately.  Ming is our family’s designated shopper. Responsibility is important to me.  I love public health, private health, mental health, radical… Read More »

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decided

“I decided something,” I told Ming.  I washed a carrot and was chopping it on the cutting board, making breakfast.  The carrot was going in my rice. “What?” he asked. “This rap I’ve been listening to is bothering me.  I can’t do the gunshot sounds or people calling women bitches anymore.  I’m done with it,”… Read More »

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praying to my stomach

I’m having some health issues I’m not really talking about.  Remember when I had that ulcer bleed that put me in the hospital?  I learned a lot there.  Well, the current issues are stomach-related.  So praying to my stomach is a thing, lately. When something almost kills you, makes sense to develop anxiety around that. … Read More »

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nipples

Hey, I’ve been thinking about nipples.  Mostly my own, but other people’s nipples too.  Bodies, social norms, different kinds of comfort.  Physical comfort and emotional comfort can be opposite. Bras have always hurt me, but being stared at by lascivious men hurt me more.  So I chose the physical discomfort of bras over the pain… Read More »

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I get to keep them

Hey, great news.  I had a special mammogram and breast ultrasound.  Then a doctor looked at my test results, and the doctor says they’re normal.  There’s no cause for concern.  The breast pain and other issue are not worrisome, not cancer.  So glad I get to keep them. Yay!  Breasts are here to stay!  When… Read More »