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lucky

“How did I get so lucky, to find this love?” He was half-asleep, naked except for his chonies again, his hair so messy and beautiful. “Oh, you have ocd and narcolepsy. You were in the bargain bin!” I looked at his smiling mouth and closed eyes. We were laughing. I imagined the bargain bin at… Read More »

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pray USA

Hello, I saw this sign Pray USA with an American flag, beautiful landscape, and beautiful sky.  We were driving on a rural road in southern Oregon, west of Eugene. I asked Ming to turn around and take this picture because I wanted to write a blog post about my pray USA prayers. pray USA I… Read More »

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wonderful birthday

Wow, what a wonderful birthday.  The night before, the farmers at the farm that we’re living at blessed me with sacred gifts. Tiger’s eye beans, beautiful flowers, tea of tulsi and chamomile, and tucked inside, some eggs from the young hens that barely know what they’re doing. I set up an altar to pray with… Read More »

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what I said to Beatrice this morning

Hello, how are you doing?  I sang part of Jagged Little Pill to all three goats this morning.  I think they liked it and liked my arm motions.  It was fun to make up some new lyrics about being a goat.  The new lyrics made me giggle.  Then this is what I said to Beatrice… Read More »

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music my mom liked

Hello, how are you doing?  I’ve been thinking about music my mom liked.  I’ve had a playlist of music I associate with my dad and his death for a long time.  When I feel my grief for my dad stuck inside me, I can hear these tunes and cry.  It’s helpful. But I finally started… Read More »

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what you could do for me

Hello, how are you doing?  It’s my birthday!  I’m so glad to be alive.  Thank you contributing to my survival.  I was thinking about what you could do for me, should you care to give some blessing gift or support my projects. These are my main projects. art making, including art embroidery writing–zines and blogs… Read More »

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how to recover from an autistic meltdown

You know I do self-care all day, and I’m pretty amazing at being good to myself.  Ming supports me, and he is very kind to me.  But sometimes, very rarely, I lose my shit.  I wanted to write about how to recover from an autistic meltdown.  Here is my process for the most recent one.… Read More »

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how to know it’s a no

Trying to get away from the last person I was in a dysfunctional relationship with–wow, that was hard work.  I’ve had many low-key dysfunctional relationships, but this was one of the more dangerous and expensive.  I want to write about how to know it’s a no.  Please learn from my errors! when you’re afraid to… Read More »

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codependency

Codependency is a concept to explain a relationship situation many lovers find ourselves in.  Loving men who are addicts–that’s the type of codependency I’m most familiar with, from seeing that in my family of origin and in my own life. I believe the whole concept of codependency exists to blame the victim, and I’ve seen… Read More »

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goats

Hello, how are you doing?  Do you like goats?  Ming and I have been milking a goat on this farm in Oregon.  Her name is Beatrice, and she’s a badass.  She’s feisty and sticks her tongue out at us sometimes. I embroidered a purple goat with heavy udders of milk, to represent The World tarot… Read More »