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dolphins

This morning we drove to Guadalupe. It was good to see the fields and the old cemetery. We went to Gaudalupe beach. It was cloudy and windy out, cold but not too cold. There was almost nobody there. We walked for a while then sat on the sand. We saw pelicans. We saw seagulls. But […]

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a day in Santa Barbara

Today I spent with my best friend E. We went swimming at Santa Claus Lane beach–it was my first time there. She likes it because there’s clean sand, few bugs, enough people. (Near E’s home there’s a beach that’s always deserted–this makes her feel unsafe.) It was my first swim in quite a long time. […]

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where does the time go?

We successfully traveled to my hometown–I’m using my parents’ computer, which runs Internet Explorer as opposed to Firefox, so my spelling isn’t being checked–please pardon the egregiousness. We stopped in Santa Cruz like usual to eat lunch at Sri. My mushroom soya and eggplant moju were first rate. Erik got the same. I treated myself […]

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husband

Here’s Erik with fungus. Picture by Erik’s hiking buddy Tom.

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yes

Today I ended up going to Vedanta three times: worship in the morning, choir practice in the afternoon, and vespers in the evening. Vespers I had not been to in maybe a year, and I forgot how powerful it is. The final song we sing “Sarva Managala” is mind-blowing. The choir sounded like a band […]

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you just can’t do things your body wasn’t meant to

Today is the big summer retreat at my place of worship. The swami from the St Louis center comes to give talks. There’s a day-long program. I went in the morning to sing for worship. Worship is done entirely in Sanskrit except for one prayer at the end which is translated into English. Twameva Mata, […]

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everyone loves you–why should they not?

Something wonderful happened the other day: I went on the extended release version of one of my medications. Before, I had to take it twice a day and almost always forgot my second dose. So now I should be healthier. Today we finished working our two day job outside the home. The morning was tough. […]

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alive and present

I found myself with some overripe bananas and felt tired of banana bread, so last night I looked up recipes for banana cookies and decided to try the first one google gave me. Guess what–my cookies taste just like banana bread. What the heck? I got smart and added some carob chips to the last […]

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deck it out in fairy lights

Today I had a good meeting with my therapist. I no longer feel like we’re speaking in code. I guess I trust her more, or we’ve learned how to speak to one another. Or maybe this is just a temporary thing–hope not. Erik and I are watching The Weeping Camel. We tried watching it about […]

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good, happy, right

Tonight I had dinner with my friend H. We went to the tapas place we went to before. We shared some bread served with a dipping sauce of olive oil, balsamic vinegar, and garlic. We shared some eggplant, some anchovies, some cheese, a few olives. We split a piece of bread pudding cheesecake. She had […]