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vajras

I have a project–it’s been on my to do list for ages: get rid of my earrings.  I really can’t handle earrings.  When I was little, I had my ears pierced at age 4.  My mom made me wait till I was 4.  That gives me a smile. The little holes in my ears got […]

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I was interviewed

A writer interviewed me as a permaculture woman.  I cried because I wish I could show my mom.  She might have liked it. https://carlacram.com/2020/02/27/introducing-permaculture-women-a-series I talk about zines, zones, disability, mental health, learning how to share a garden, garden aesthetics.  The questions were fun to answer.  It turned out good.

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joyful girl

“Will you be a punk grrl with me?” I asked Ming. “Yeah!” he said.  He started dancing around a bit. “Do you know what punk means?” I asked. “What’s it mean?” he asked, still dancing around. “Smashing the patriarchy.  Yeah, basically,” I said.  “Prettymuch.” He mentioned pamphlets.  I said, “Yeah, we can make pamphlets too.”  […]

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idealistic today

I made this meme this morning because this quote speaks to me.  I’ve experienced the spiritual pain of knowing what I needed to do and not doing it.  It makes me think of how when I attended my first Sacred Peace Walk, I learned that the community I’d longed for could actually exist.  So I […]

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orange you glad I didn’t say banana

“What’s going on with this potato?” Ming asked me, holding up an orange. “That’s an orange,” I said. “Ok,” he said. “It’s up for grabs.  Anyone can eat it.  As long as it’s an orange.  If it changes into something else, don’t eat it.” Ming said he understood and peeled the orange over the sink.  […]

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time problem, more time traveling, max vibrant

content warning: a little bit of self-hate pertaining to fatness, age, appearance–sorry about that Ming invited me to a social event.  He must have known I would be a “hell no!” but invited me anyway, then thought it was funny when I said hell no.  “I’m going to travel back in time, just so I […]

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Learning Spanish

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I’m still learning in a couple different ways.  So shy to speak.  My friend mentioned a language exchange app.  But I’m a dork because that friend is fluent in Spanish, and guess how many times I spoke Spanish to them. I started studying French on duolingo also.  I had a lot still in my head […]

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almost a triple rainbow

We installed a new Quan Yin yesterday.  How beautiful.  I gave her a kiss. Also there was a rainbow I was watching brighten and brighten, until I couldn’t stand it anymore and went outside to take a picture to show R.  Pretty too. Wish I could show Mama.  She would have liked that one. We […]

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hiding ideas in silence, not moderating ideaflow, pair a Docs

1.  reusing post-it notes 2.  drawing mermaids–deciding they’re not good enough 3.  valid midnight meals 4.  deconstructing storebought jewelry to make better jewelry 5.  worshiping Quan Yin in my own way I was holding the statue in my arms kind of like she was a baby, when we left Cactus Joe’s.  That was pretty good, […]

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language changes, night illness, searching for slack

content warning: ideas that sound eating disordery, but I’m actually ok I realized I have all this French inside me, I might as well study French a little bit and see how that goes.  Not sure why I didn’t think of that till yesterday, lying in bed, messing around on my phone.  I was studying […]