“No, thank you,” I said. “Ice cream seems hopeful, and I don’t have any hope.” He was eating some Trader Joe’s chocolate ice cream, straight from the carton. “We don’t have the right flavor anyway,” I added. “I need anti-patriarchy flavor.” He poured some popcorn into a bowl for me at my request. For lunch… Read More »
I fed, I listened, I housed, I was patient with. I waited. I helped, I planned, I smiled, I offered. I replied. I asked, I cared. I gave the benefit of the doubt. I got used up. I don’t have more to give. I can’t solve any of the problems. I’m hurt and burned out.… Read More »
The event that is called the Sacred Peace Walk 2019 has officially ended. The last walker left yesterday for her home and the final round of cleaning up from the event continues. Loads of blankets, sheets, pillowcases, and towels that needed to be laundered are being and have been washed and folded this past week.… Read More »
This lady I like who knows stuff suggests oat straw for anxiety. I also heard of magnesium helping. So we bought some magnesium yesterday at the health food store. But they didn’t have oat straw. This morning Ming called an herb store in town Herbally Grounded to ask if they had oat straw, and they… Read More »
Spring makes me crazy. All the extra light. Warmth making my body feel different. Plantlife going wild. Spring is too much. Too many changes. So fluxy. I asked Ming, are things going to change back? He said he didn’t know. Long time ago I had really bad anxiety. I was having multiple panic attacks per… Read More »
nice fried rice cold leftover rice oil garlic powder frozen peas frozen spinach, chopped cayenne black pep shoyu Put some oil in a pan. Heat it. Add the rice. Fry it for a while. Don’t stir too much. Keep the heat high. Meanwhile, separately, heat the spinach and peas till they’re thawed. Add a generous… Read More »
Woke up from bad dreams about my upcoming endoscopy. I would rather skip it. “Can’t we just have faith that my ulcer healed?” I asked Ming. It bothers me that just because a procedure is possible, it becomes necessary. Someone invented it. It went from an idea to a possibility to a necessity. I’m grateful… Read More »
Planting a tree is like having a baby. A hopeful act. I see the new life in our courtyard and feel a little excited by its green. I opted out of participating in its ceremony, but I know about it, and maybe it knows about me? Please live, little palo verde.
I was standing outside, waiting for you, just kinda looking around. Then I felt a feeling on my chest. I didn’t think much. Then there was a “arrrgh!” and I felt it bite me. So I went like this. [motion of brushing off my chest] And I looked down, and I saw the bug on… Read More »
Yesterday was board meeting day. But three people who would have been at the meeting were still in jail for the civil disobedience. So things were chaotic. They had a pre-trial video thing with a judge in the afternoon, and the judge wasn’t going to let them go. So we bailed them out, which was… Read More »