Oh hey, I was filled with anger. Ming came home from the Las Vegas Catholic Worker soup line serving this morning and told me the cops are shutting it down. I feel really upset that the government wins. Homeless people are people. The government exists for them! How is feeding hungry people a crime? Well,… Read More »
“Has your loquat tree fruited yet?” I asked my friend. These friends here in Tucson, I’ve always loved their garden. “No,” she said. “Do you want to talk to it?” “Yeah,” I said. Usually people don’t invite me to talk to their trees. We went over to the loquat tree, and I touched a branch. … Read More »
“If I ever feel like life isn’t worth living, please feed me some of this bread,” I told Ming. It was cheese garlic naan from Gandhi’s in Tucson. Wow, amazing. Better bread than I could have dreamed. Ming was turning left, driving us back to our airbnb. “I guess it’s the bread of life. Maybe… Read More »
It was an intense couple of days. I got suicidal, the day before Mother’s Day. That happened last year too. I knew not being able to call and send a card, or visit my mom for Mother’s Day, would destroy me. It’s not like I was even thinking of her a lot–more that my body… Read More »
Hey, I was ecstatic dancing outside to my youtube dance playlist. I was wearing no shirt–I wore a sports bra. It’s ok to exercise, wearing a sports bra, so I hear. But I never did it before. I walked outside in a skirt and bra, which I had never done before. Felt vulnerable and slightly… Read More »
Being able to have difficult conversations is something I need, in any close relationship. I’ve been thinking a lot about relationships, the five things I need, non-negotiable. the five things I need mutual respect Respect is like love, but less sparkly. I need to be seen as pretty much equal to anyone I’m going to… Read More »
I took a chi gong class on Saturday. The night before, a bodyworker friend invited me over txt, and I had the time. So I learned chi gong from my friend’s teacher, and it was emotional. I guess the most important part was toward the end when I was crying, an emotional release pertaining to… Read More »
A new friend asked how I handle big feelings. Great question. I will answer as honestly as I can. how I handle big feelings I talk to Ming about how I feel, emote to him, ask for feedback, explain intense situations related to the feelings. Sometimes I ask him if he sees something I don’t… Read More »
Hey, how have you been? I’ve gone through a weird-ass journey lately without leaving my house. I’ve felt so many feelings–I could win the feeling olympics. I’d be on the top step, gold medal Laura-Marie, crying, deeply solid in my grief and joy. I put up some new art. Feels good to invite it into… Read More »
I always see roses as about my mom. Their beautiful struggle. Especially red ones, as that was her favorite color, when I was young. These roses are simple like wild ones, not the multiple layers of petals, but small and one layer. I was lying in bed on my way to sleep, writing a txt… Read More »