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when I wanted the salt washed off the cashews

me: Hey, you never washed off the cashews for me. Ming: You really wanted me to do that? me: Yeah! Ming: I thought you were kidding. me: Why would I be kidding? Ming:  Because then they would be all wet. me: Yeah, then I’d dry them off. Ming: But then they’d be all blotted. me: […]

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heart warrior

This morning I see my new endocrinologist.  I’m trying not to be anxious.  Either she’s good and will listen to me and work with me, or maybe I don’t need an endocrinologist? I’m mostly done with being abused by doctors.  I don’t want to stick with anyone who will fat shame me.  Diets don’t work, […]

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freedom

I wanted to tell you some things and was writing a blog post in my head while I made pasta and cooked mushrooms and sauce.  Then I forgot all of it. Last night I was laughing in bed about the idea and phrase “pants substitute.”  You know I like to write these little six word […]

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pirate friends

Is it ok to pretend to be pirates?  Pirates are a real thing, right?  I feel like there are real pirates, and then there are the idea of pirates like in Peter Pan.  Hopefully I’m not exploiting anybody by letting my friend put a skull handkerchief on my head.  And letting Ming take a picture.

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happy birthday to Vera

It’s my friend’s birthday today, so I’m wearing the necklace she gave me for my birthday, years ago, and sending her extra love. I think I have a little more energy, more follow-thru with my intentions.  Things seem more possible. I survived my sleep study.  It was pretty horrible.  But I washed my hair and […]

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emotional first aid kit

clear plastic bag to hold everything noise-canceling headphones These are too big to go in the kits I’m making now. But if I ever have to spend time in the hospital again, I’d like some noise-canceling headphones so I can take a break from the hospital while in the hospital. small sketchbook and pen I’m […]

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all I need

Ming put some small white beans in the crock pot this morning.  So now I have fresh beans to eat.  Ah.  Delicious. We went to a magical bookstore today.  I’ve been looking for rubies for the emotional first aid kits I’m making.  I heard rubies are grounding yet energizing.  Sounds good.  Also they are very […]

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morning glories, monkeyflowers, dudleyas

A long time ago, when I lived in Sacramento and worked in the gardens at the Vedanta Society there, Swami hated morning glories. “Take out those morning glories,” he’d say when I was weeding. I felt like they were sweet.  So cute and cheerful.  With their pale round flowers and fine vines. But I could […]

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sacred

I want to learn how to make paper.  I like to make little books as gifts, and it would be cool if I didn’t have to buy the paper. Going home has a different energy than outgoing trip excitement.  Going home can feel like work.  But the drive is beautiful.  I’m blessed to come from […]

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special horse day

Today Ming rode a horse for the first time.  I’m feeling like a good spouse for helping him fulfil a lifelong dream.  He wasn’t scared and did great.  They rode a trail by a waterfall and could see the ocean at times, from the mountain area. It’s up a canyon I had never been up […]