Hello, reader. How are you doing? I’ve been thinking about the part of love that’s giving people space–I’ve been thinking about boundaries as love. This idea is very important to me. You know how music is made of sounds, but there can be silence between bits of sound? The rests are so delicious. Or an… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? Yesterday was horrific. Can I tell you about it? It’s time for a thank you post. I had a 9am dentist appointment that cost $1700. It was supposed to be two hours. It was more than three hours, and I can’t do that. It was wrong for me both… Read More »
Hello, I can’t be around people for very long each day. Being social is hard for me. I have social differences and sensory differences of autism which wear me out fast. Always I’ve blamed myself for this and put it on me for being a messed up person. It wasn’t until yesterday that I realized… Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? I was having conflict with a new friend. Writing about the situation in my Secret Googledocs of Navel Gazing, I wrote myself into a realization about four pages in: My friend is hurting me about things that he actually has no idea about me yet. So I decided to list… Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? I made a new zine. Feels important–would you like to trade? It’s functionally ill 32: autism plus crazy is a whole other thing. I copied it today at my old favorite copy shop Copy World in Berkeley. It’s five cents a page–up from three cents a page, ten years ago. … Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? My friend mentioned the children’s magazine Highlights on social media and listed what they liked best about it. It’s funny because we’re both queer poet-artists who do radical mental health and have so much in common. But we mentioned totally different parts of the magazine. This is what I liked… Read More »
You know I do self-care all day, and I’m pretty amazing at being good to myself. Ming supports me, and he is very kind to me. But sometimes, very rarely, I lose my shit. I wanted to write about how to recover from an autistic meltdown. Here is my process for the most recent one.… Read More »
“Ableism is eugenics,” I told Ming. “Ableism is eugenics-lite. Ableism is eugenics in a Halloween costume. How does everyone not understand that?” Eugenics is Hitler trying to design a master race, experimenting on twins, and treating human beings as a means to an end. Eugenics is sterilizing people who are Indigenous, Black, disabled, in prison,… Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? I’ve been thinking about how I learned to respect everyone. Ming and I had a cool conversation about it the other day in the car. why “Why are you so respectful?” I asked Ming. It seems too rare. “Did something happen, or has the respectfulness just always been inside of… Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? Ming and I are on a journey, searching for home. I’m thinking about my needs lately, the true truth. Not what I think I should need, but what I actually, for reaslsies need to feel safe in my home. A big part of that is bathrooms. I was worried about… Read More »