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how I learned to do less

Last year I knew I needed to cut back on my responsibilities and activities, but I didn’t know how.  Everything I did felt crucially important.  But I needed to give more energy to myself, work on my health, and lower my stress.  It could be a matter of life and death.  I want to tell… Read More »

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panicking

Last night I was panicking, and it was a hard night.  I went through a whole experience.  There was restless overwhelm, then a classic panic attack, and a ton of recovery until I could sleep. Ming helped me in all of that.  He asked me some cool questions, and I got distracted answering them.  He… Read More »

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the back entrance to a psych hospital

Ming had a doctor’s appointment that was supposed to be virtual, but last minute he heard from the office that he needed to be there in person.  So we went to a medical part of town, across from the children’s hospital.  I walked during his appointment, and it was pretty miserable.  I saw something disturbing… Read More »

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taunting NAMI

When I saw the NAMI table at the SWANfest, I started daydreaming about taunting NAMI. Taunting NAMI is a fantasy more than a reality.  But NAMI represents the powerful standard belief that the system is good, and we just have to try harder to adapt ourselves to it.  Normal is desirable and within reach, if… Read More »

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altered state

I had an experience where I went into a mentality different from my usual and got a message from my mom.  It was an altered state, like when people use mushrooms, LSD, peyote, fasting, or holotropic breathing to enter an altered state.  Or psychosis, delusions, visions, or other mental health experiences that are common for… Read More »

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hearing voices

My curious friend asked about my voices.  He wants to know what they sound like, are they nice or mean, genders, languages.  I searched my own blog for hearing voices and came up with some cool posts, but nothing giving a real overview. I’m crazy and disabled, love and accept myself unconditionally, and have a… Read More »

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sedation

Sometimes I like a little sedation, when I’m too up and need help calming down.  It helps to curtail a problem–it’s important that I don’t get really too up, which can be a hypomanic issue. A friend mentioned he needs to quit smoking weed.  I don’t like weed or alcohol, and it’s expensive.  So by… Read More »

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miracle

Trying to trust myself that I’m doing good work.  I would rather make art like Miracle that tells my truth and nourishes me, than waste my time running in circles. I’m disabled and crazy, so let me be disabled and crazy.  What if I spent less time trying to be appropriate and seem ok?  Yes,… Read More »

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functionally ill 30

I made a new zine, functionally ill 30 wellness plan.  I feel happy and proud. It had been just more than a year since I made an issue of functionally ill.  Wow!  I took a break.  But I was making tons of other zines. It’s been 14 years I’ve been making functionally ill.  This zine… Read More »

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art gallery

Yesterday was the day–the day I finally visited Recycled Propaganda.  It’s an art gallery in the arts district of downtown Las Vegas.  Ming went there a while ago.  He bought me some stickers.  But I had that year I didn’t go anywhere, the covid year, as I grieved my mom’s death.  Finally yesterday we went–yay.… Read More »