Oh hey. The internet told me that Bob Saget died. I felt an emotional reaction that surprised me. “An actor died,” I told Ming. “Yeah,” he said. “Do you know who this Bob Saget is?” I asked. “No,” Ming said. “I was just reading about him.” “He was on Full House,” I said. “Did you… Read More »
Lately I’m enjoying sending to a few friends the art that I had on my ofrenda, for Day of the Dead. Feels like a great way to disperse the energy. And I hope the friends enjoy the art. I don’t need to keep that powerful, potent stuff around. Glad to spread joy to the world.… Read More »
Yesterday I had maybe the gnarliest panic attack I’ve ever had. Wow, it was an altered state. So powerful, like–I don’t need to use drugs, ever. I went to another dimension: terror world. I lost part of myself. Thought I was dying. Afterward, I was amazed that I survived. I’ve had a panic attack now… Read More »
Recently I heard this song by Killer Mike about Ronald Reagan that blew my mind. History like this–wow. And the ending makes me exclaim every time. Such a brilliant culmination of everything he said before that, and such a strong, real response to that weird flag waving, teary-eyed nostalgia I remember, when Reagan died. The… Read More »
Hey, I wanted to mention that I need things. Lately a few people are coming to me for help, and I’m glad I can share info, ideas, support, my own experience. I’m learning how to ask for help too. It’s way easier for me to give help, than to learn how to ask for help.… Read More »
I had a headache that lasted five days, off and on. One afternoon I was lying in bed in the half-dark–I was in so much pain. All I could do was hold my head and talk to myself. “You’re ok, Laura-Marie. I have faith in you. I believe in you,” over and over, hundreds of… Read More »
My therapist died suddenly, and I’m heartbroken. Her name was Tracye Ditmore. I found her online around six years ago. She knew everything about my emotional life–she helped me get through so many things. She was brilliant, and I can’t believe she’s dead. This is her picture from the internet. The therapist-client relationship is weird… Read More »
I saw a meme comparing doctors to drug dealers. I found it provocative and edgy! Also very true. So I changed the middle part and made my own meme, my own version. The yellow background is simple, but I think it’s ok? Social support is a big factor in health outcomes and well-being, but mainstream… Read More »
I want to share some tips for withdrawal, what helps me. But first I need to say–some withdrawals are dangerous. warning Sadly, people can die from withdrawal, and also people can miscarry. So tapering is a good thing–alcohol and opioids especially. Please consider talking to someone with alcohol or opioids experience, if you need to… Read More »
My friend Ariel is an artist and very crafty. She likes to do month-long stitch challenges. We had the idea we could make our own for November! November friendship artalong. I wanted to try a stitch challenge for November, but I didn’t want to do a pilgrim hat or stuffing or whathaveyou. So yeah, we… Read More »