“Today I choose myself,” I said, lighting the candle on my altar. “Whatever that means!” Hi, reader. How you doing? Are you trying to create change in your life? I’m trying to end addictive cycles of self-hate. The self-hate is related to relationship and where I get my self-worth. I’ve been working on this for… Read More »
Hello, reader. How you doing? I’m tempted to say good morning because morning is my favorite time. The world seems so alive in the quiet pre-dawn. Anything is possible. I wrote this post for you called relationship attempts. False spring bloomed, and now it’s back to full-time Oregon rain. relationship attempts Last night I remembered… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? Trying to be responsible, I’m seeking medical care and dental care. I’m trying a new Nurse Practitioner after a bad experience with the last one. Today I’m thinking about what I need from a doctor. I’ve had decades of medical trauma. Previously I’d preferred to be shot, over going… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? I’m not really against diagnosis. But sometimes I’m annoyed at how my friends seek diagnosis as validation. Why is the opinion of a doctor so important? You’re a valid person, no matter what a doctor says or doesn’t say. Please don’t give those gatekeeping enforcers more power than they… Read More »
Hello, reader! How are you? Do you have pain and / or reduced functionality of your body? Lately I’m problem solving physical therapy. I have a very hard time inhabiting and moving my body in an intentional way, especially around people I don’t know well. Right now I’m on my third physical therapist, and all… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? I’ve been sad that my lower back, ass, and thighs are in so much pain lately. They are carrying so much trauma–that whole area. So large and solid physically: sacred. I wish my ass was a source of safety. It’s like my ass missed its destiny, which is depressing. … Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? I like to go to a special place by some elk to express grief, rage, and any feelings that have been too long stuck in my body. So glad I know how to yell. elk Last year I was upset about an emotional situation. My suffering was tied in… Read More »
Trauma-informed physical therapy could help many people. I tried PT at a local place with great reviews and struggled to the point that I stopped going. It was easy to identify that the physical therapist touched me in ways that were supposed to reassure me, but just made me more anxious. I worked up the… Read More »
Hello, reader. How you doing? There’s a sign that says “Wound Healing” near a local hospital in Springfield. A place that specializes in healing wounds. Every time I see that sign, I imagine showing up to ask for help. “Please help me–I can’t heal these wounds on my own,” I say. So many times I’ve… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? Do you have death trauma? I notice three main paths. We can ignore death, like fools! We can get deep into it–we can become death dulas, plan out how we want our bodies composted, and make peace with death through religion and/or preparation. Or the choice of me and… Read More »