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moonstone beach

We went to Moonstone beach, and it was my first time seeing the ocean in two years, since before my mom died.  You know I was in the desert, those two years. This trip to my homeland is no joyride!  But I do like to find joy everywhere.  This trip is for healing, feeling, facing… Read More »

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hotels

Hotels are like dysfunctional apartment complexes full of mostly rich people.  We are here for only a short time, so we don’t organize.  We accept the weirdness of hotels and move on. Right now we’re at a fancy hotel my mom loved and visited with her sister.  It was that special time after my dad… Read More »

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what I’ve learned

This trip is amazing, and here’s a list of what I’ve learned so far.  Just some easy to put my finger on facts. what I’ve learned I am very allergic to wicker furniture. A decent bed is not optional. A decent chair is not optional either. Starting a journey telling Ming, “I will be clear… Read More »

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my favorite stims

Stimming is a common thing humans do.  Stims can be comforting, stress reducing, pleasurable.  I made a video (with Ming’s help) about my favorite stims.  The CC works pretty good; it says stems instead of stims, but you get the idea. Thought you might like to see what I do.  Or you might like some… Read More »

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Bob Saget

Oh hey.  The internet told me that Bob Saget died.  I felt an emotional reaction that surprised me. “An actor died,” I told Ming. “Yeah,” he said. “Do you know who this Bob Saget is?” I asked. “No,” Ming said.  “I was just reading about him.” “He was on Full House,” I said.  “Did you… Read More »

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almond butter

“Hey, lover.  I need to tell you something,” I said to Ming, thinking about almond butter.  “There’s something I told you before, but now it changed, so it’s no longer true.  You wanna hear what I’m talking about?” “Sure,” he said.  We were out in the driveway, and it was dusky out.  I wanted to… Read More »

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trip out

Hello–we’re on a road trip.  This trip out to the coast is a big deal.  Emotionally, I’ve been needing it for a long time.  Can I show you a few California pictures? Here’s Ming with a drug shake in Barstow.  He’s done a great job driving.  No car issues or surprising health issues so far.… Read More »

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how I learned to do less

Last year I knew I needed to cut back on my responsibilities and activities, but I didn’t know how.  Everything I did felt crucially important.  But I needed to give more energy to myself, work on my health, and lower my stress.  It could be a matter of life and death.  I want to tell… Read More »

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panicking

Last night I was panicking, and it was a hard night.  I went through a whole experience.  There was restless overwhelm, then a classic panic attack, and a ton of recovery until I could sleep. Ming helped me in all of that.  He asked me some cool questions, and I got distracted answering them.  He… Read More »

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dancing in a new way

“I feel like dancing in a new way,” I told Ming. He was driving us home.  He’d just grocery shopped, while I walked in parking lots, looking at trash and dumpsters, as I am wont to do. “Dancing in a new way, like how?” he asked. “With my ass,” I said.  I imagined dancing and… Read More »