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MC Candy Foot

breakfast ingredients “You want a grackle for breakfast?” I asked Ming.  A grackle was vocalizing in the courtyard. “Yeah!” he said. “Oh, honey.  You don’t eat birds.  The only animals you eat are sea creatures.” “Well, that’s good because they both start with a c.” “Uh–grackle doesn’t start with a c.  It starts with a… Read More »

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airbnbs we have known

Thinking about the airbnbs we have known.  Our first time was back when we visited Olympia, Washington six and a half years ago.  We got the small studio apartment of a flight attendant.  The idea was that she rented out her space to people while she was elsewhere. The apartment building felt sketch, and I… Read More »

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my favorite stims

Stimming is a common thing humans do.  Stims can be comforting, stress reducing, pleasurable.  I made a video (with Ming’s help) about my favorite stims.  The CC works pretty good; it says stems instead of stims, but you get the idea. Thought you might like to see what I do.  Or you might like some… Read More »

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Bob Saget

Oh hey.  The internet told me that Bob Saget died.  I felt an emotional reaction that surprised me. “An actor died,” I told Ming. “Yeah,” he said. “Do you know who this Bob Saget is?” I asked. “No,” Ming said.  “I was just reading about him.” “He was on Full House,” I said.  “Did you… Read More »

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how I learned to do less

Last year I knew I needed to cut back on my responsibilities and activities, but I didn’t know how.  Everything I did felt crucially important.  But I needed to give more energy to myself, work on my health, and lower my stress.  It could be a matter of life and death.  I want to tell… Read More »

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panicking

Last night I was panicking, and it was a hard night.  I went through a whole experience.  There was restless overwhelm, then a classic panic attack, and a ton of recovery until I could sleep. Ming helped me in all of that.  He asked me some cool questions, and I got distracted answering them.  He… Read More »

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why I like radical mental health people best

Good morning.  I want to tell you why I like radical mental health people best.  The question has been intriguing me for some time. It’s no coincidence that most of my closest friends and the people I fall in love with or otherwise share my life with are radical mental health people.  So I wanted… Read More »

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praying to my stomach

I’m having some health issues I’m not really talking about.  Remember when I had that ulcer bleed that put me in the hospital?  I learned a lot there.  Well, the current issues are stomach-related.  So praying to my stomach is a thing, lately. When something almost kills you, makes sense to develop anxiety around that. … Read More »

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panic attack

Yesterday I had maybe the gnarliest panic attack I’ve ever had.  Wow, it was an altered state.  So powerful, like–I don’t need to use drugs, ever.  I went to another dimension: terror world.  I lost part of myself. Thought I was dying. Afterward, I was amazed that I survived. I’ve had a panic attack now… Read More »

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how I can dance in public

I made a new ecstatic dance video.  A friend asked me how I can dance in public, so I made this video to answer her question.  Felt great to talk about some of my favorite topics: choosing my values, dance ministry, creating the world I want to live in, shedding shame, fat validity, being a… Read More »