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my attention is valuable

Hello, reader. How are you doing? Recently I learned that my attention is valuable. I don’t owe it to anyone. In fact, it’s more valuable than gold! Gold grew in many caverns. My attention only grows one place. I had been compulsive about getting back to people. Responsiveness was something I carried too far. Oops!… Read More »

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St Patrick

Dear friend, I was in a sacred, holy place which is simultaneously mundanely everyday, where we can eat oatmeal and chop a lot of carrots. I saw this bottle of hot sauce with St Patrick stuck to it, and of course I thought of you. Both St Patrick and hot sauce are (or were) important… Read More »

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who kept me alive when I was in my 20s

Hello, reader. How are you doing? I was just thinking about who kept me alive when I was in my 20s. content warning: mentions of suicidal desire I was seriously traumatized in my youth. Then that decade of 20-30 as I healed– it was a lot of work to stay alive. The lost decade, I… Read More »

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prayer for leaving the land

Hello, reader! How are you? This prayer for leaving the land is remarkable because we always pray as we’re about to arrive to the land. We ask for help treating others with respect, and help with boundaries. We ask for help giving only what we want to give, and taking only what we want to… Read More »

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dog feelings

Hello, reader. How are you doing? I need to tell you a story about dog feelings. Basically I upset a dog, and I don’t know why. But I have theories. work party Once upon a time, there was a little dog who had strong feelings for me at a work party. What did I do… Read More »

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four day ritual

Hello, reader. How are you doing? Yesterday I completed a four day ritual I want to tell you about. Performing a multi-day ritual is wild during travel because I was at a different location each time. I recommend this because the spirits of the land are different everywhere, the plants are different, the biome, the… Read More »

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apology transforms energy

Hello, reader. How are you doing? I love how apology transforms energy. This is part two to a post from last month called “what apology is for.” I’ve been thinking about magic words, like “thank you” and “I’m sorry.” Magic words play with trust and power, social concepts that I think about all day. Love… Read More »

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preview final message

Hey, reader. How are you doing? Last post I was talking about that internal memo googledoc of what I want done with my stuff when I die. And now I want to write the statement to be released at the time of my death as a final message. Yes! But why wait? I intend to… Read More »

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meditation for drop

Hello, reader. How are you doing? I want to share this meditation for drop. I hope it can help a suffering person. Drop is a deep emotional low I wouldn’t wish on my worst frenemy. I experience drop after abundant physical contact, associated with New Relationship Energy. It’s thrilling how I get high from touch… Read More »

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another year

Hey, reader. How are you? I got to live another year–it’s pretty incredible. How much life can I pack into a year? A ton! Happy birthday, with much thanks to my mama for carrying, birthing, feeding, and raising me. It’s hard to continue without her, yet here we grow. Ming took this picture of me… Read More »