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ears

“Can you do me a favor and grow your ears really big so they turn into wings?  And then I can climb on your back, and we could fly around?” I asked Ming. “Sure,” he said. We were lying in bed–I was touching his ear and making it flap like a wing.  His ears are… Read More »

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good music

“You listen to good music!” Ming said. “Thank you!” I said.  “There’s a lot of good music around.”  I was hearing this medicine in Spanish. “Look!  Jaguar!” I said.  “Snake!”  There’s a jaguar on the art for youtube.  Jaguar is special to me, for sure.  I’m nuts about snakes also. spiritual scientist I used to… Read More »

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dance park

“Hey, honey,” I said to Ming.  “What if we danced in a vacant lot.  And then a bunch of other people started dancing in the vacant lot too.  And it turned into a dance park.” “Mmm,” Ming said. “Yeah!  Wouldn’t that be cool?”  I imagined we put in a good dance surface, like the springy… Read More »

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goddess temple

We went to the goddess temple so I could finally meet the caretaker.  She’s been there a while now.  But I was hiding out and laying low, as I grieved my mom.  Grief is the hardest work I’ve ever done.  So I didn’t meet the caretaker till yesterday. She made muffins and served us fruit… Read More »

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embarrassed

Hey, guess what.  I posted on facebook about the recording I did of the Bach song I love, and a link to the soundcloud file.  Then I got really embarrassed, like it’s no good, and took it down from facebook. I was playing the recording for Ming, and all I could hear were the flaws. … Read More »

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vulnerable

Being vulnerable is worth it.  I wrote that song “beautiful,” and wasn’t sure I liked it.  Recorded it mostly to get down the tune I’d figured out, so I wouldn’t forget it, if I set is aside. There’s another verse I left out impulsively about feeling like a rabbit.  I guess it’s now the Lost… Read More »

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beautiful

Hey, I wrote a song.  It’s called “beautiful.”  It’s about misogyny, fat shaming, emotional labor, and defining someone’s worth based on sex appeal.  It has one explicit word and one mature theme. https://soundcloud.com/robotmad/beautiful Mostly it’s about what I learned about gender in my family when I was a kid, some boyfriends I had many years… Read More »

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here in California

When I graduated from college, a former teacher from high school gave me an album by Kate Wolf as a gift, and I had never heard it. He was apologetic, hoping it was not too country for me. This song “Here In California” always has stood out to me as beautifully true about love, but… Read More »

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new Sufjan Stevens song Sugar

Hopefully an artist leads you to a new place.  Hopefully they take you by the hand and are kind to you.  I always think a good poem teaches me how to read it. Sufjan Stevens is my favorite, and I’ve let him lead me to some weird places.  He can do a lot of different… Read More »

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brilliant mycelium

I’m a fiend for mushrooms.  They are gorgeous, can remediate polluted soil, are their own kingdom.  Lots of people think mushrooms are plants, but they’re their own thing. They can be delicious; they’re one of my favorite foods.  And one of my favorite things to find in nature–in a forest, in a bag of soil,… Read More »