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caring for my body

I have a deal with my body–I give her some basic things, and she gives me the ability to function.  Before, I thought that caring for my body was a waste of time, a tedious chore.  I wanted to do the minimum. Now I understand that caring for my body is a sacred pleasure, and… Read More »

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christmas cactus

Hello, I wanted to tell you Christmas cactus has been a theme of this trip.  Almost to the point that it’s spooky. On June 20th, at the edge of summer solstice, we left Las Vegas and traveled to the coast, to the place we thought would be our new home in California.  Two days later,… Read More »

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rest stop

Hello, how are you doing?  Ming and I were so happy at this river rest stop in Idaho.  We were in Idaho for a lot longer than I thought we would be!  I asked Ming to take my picture to help us remember it: Lenore rest stop. There’s a 16 hour limit, so I thought… Read More »

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spiritual bypassing

In yoga class on Wednesday, our teacher talked about spiritual bypassing.  It was at the beginning, and I had a big reaction.  I think our teacher was upset by violence in the news and didn’t want to pretend that collective grief and individual grief isn’t happening. She acknowledges the grief and pain, and she said… Read More »

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rest

Rest is sacred, one of the pillars of my wellness.  Is rest sacred to you?  Does is help you feel happy and able to continue?  That’s what it is for me.  Rest isn’t optional–being alone, sleep, just doing nothing. psychoactive substances I was at a Whole Foods, standing by the checkout.  I saw a display… Read More »

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you are stronger than hate

You are stronger than hate is my motto lately.  I was making art recently, and slogans I like were coming to me: queer liberation for all life forms queer revolution fight the power love one another You are stronger than hate was loud and clear. The sentences are ideas I need to share and need… Read More »

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time out

I like to give myself a time out when I’m overstimulated or overwhelmed.  In my bedroom, with the lights off, lying in bed in the half-dark–that’s a time out.  There’s nothing punishing about it.  In fact, it’s my joy.  It’s rest, and rest is everything to me. My circuits get overloaded sometimes.  Probably that could… Read More »

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heart protector

Oh hey.  I have this friend who lives in Tucson and was talking about calcium tea.  I was intrigued and went to the Tucson Herb Shop website.  True I need more calcium in my life, but mostly it sounded tasty.  And I got some heart protector spray. Wow, they have amazing things!  I wish I… Read More »

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pleasure and rest

I need more pleasure and rest.  Felt good to identify that, txting with a friend the other day. When he asked “how are you doing?” I gave a thorough answer.  Moody, emotional, curious, happy, confused.  My pain level is going down, so I’m sleeping better–thank God.  But pleasure and rest are two nourishments I really… Read More »

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weird day

Yesterday was a weird day.  We went to the storage unit.  They raised the rent again, so we’re trying to clean it out and toss as much as possible. I was upset about a day’s worth of hurt.  A friend was suffering from being mistreated by medicine even more than I am.  I was angry… Read More »