“I feel like things are too changey right now,” I told Ming. “Do you ever feel like that?” I saw Ming think about it. “Yes,” he said. “Oh, ok. Good to know you feel like that sometimes too,” I said. “I need everything to slow down for a minute.” I could chalk it up to… Read More »
Hello from Portland. How are you, reader? Ming and I are sick. It’s our first illness since before pandemic, so more than three years. Wow. I don’t recommend it. Zero stars–would not illness again. I am much sicker than Ming. He is just sniffley. I hope we get well soon. We came here to rest… Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? I was thinking about what goes through my head when I’m falling asleep lately. It’s changed. For a while it was Rainbow Goddess. Perhaps you know her. She lives on a mountain by herself, like a fire lookout, but she wouldn’t tell anyone about the fire. She would let it… Read More »
Hello, I am suffering with sads. Housing search got me down. We are safe at the moment, house sitting for friends in the Bay Area. But I need somewhere of my own, to lay my heart down and rest a deeper rest. What do I do? You can’t rush other people’s decisions. For my health… Read More »
I have a deal with my body–I give her some basic things, and she gives me the ability to function. Before, I thought that caring for my body was a waste of time, a tedious chore. I wanted to do the minimum. Now I understand that caring for my body is a sacred pleasure, and… Read More »
Hello, I wanted to tell you Christmas cactus has been a theme of this trip. Almost to the point that it’s spooky. On June 20th, at the edge of summer solstice, we left Las Vegas and traveled to the coast, to the place we thought would be our new home in California. Two days later,… Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? Ming and I were so happy at this river rest stop in Idaho. We were in Idaho for a lot longer than I thought we would be! I asked Ming to take my picture to help us remember it: Lenore rest stop. There’s a 16 hour limit, so I thought… Read More »
In yoga class on Wednesday, our teacher talked about spiritual bypassing. It was at the beginning, and I had a big reaction. I think our teacher was upset by violence in the news and didn’t want to pretend that collective grief and individual grief isn’t happening. She acknowledges the grief and pain, and she said… Read More »
Rest is sacred, one of the pillars of my wellness. Is rest sacred to you? Does is help you feel happy and able to continue? That’s what it is for me. Rest isn’t optional–being alone, sleep, just doing nothing. psychoactive substances I was at a Whole Foods, standing by the checkout. I saw a display… Read More »
You are stronger than hate is my motto lately. I was making art recently, and slogans I like were coming to me: queer liberation for all life forms queer revolution fight the power love one another You are stronger than hate was loud and clear. The sentences are ideas I need to share and need… Read More »