I enjoy making a hashtag that’s new. Today I hashtagged #amaranthisforlovers on instagram, and it gave me a thrill. I ordered yerba buena from a special plant nursery in the Bay Area, a favorite plant of mine. It arrived yesterday. It smells amazing. The smell is perfect. I like it for tea. But the ones… Read More »
I have friends, and I love them. Can you blame me? What is life for, if not to love? Mother God gave me this wild brain and active body. It has hormones and feelings. I’m a mammal. I reach for other mammals, to hold them in my arms and against my body, to kiss and… Read More »
I like extremes–I can find a lot of learning there. Intense experiences, so informative–quick insight from terrible or terribly wonderful times. I’ll take it. But some things, I need middleness. A great pain of my life was hating myself a lot, and then switching to thinking highly of myself. I’d prefer to be an ok… Read More »
Many people I try to connect with, they have love-trauma. Something bad happened to them when they were young, where they tried to care for someone, be there for someone, and have their words match their behavior. Something bad happened where they got accused of harm or disagreement about what love is. They tried to… Read More »
People ask Ming how I am. They know I was in the hospital. They wanna know if I’m better. They care, for his sake and for mine. I’m doing much better physically. When I first came home from the hospital, I was so bad. I could barely function. I was at one percent. There are… Read More »