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going to Ojai

Hello, we are leaving Bakersfield and relocating to a permaculture farm in Ojai, California today.  Yes, I hope going to Ojai is great for us, and I hope we’re great for the community we’re going to live with. Yes, there’s an intentional community at the farm.  We’ve made a deal to stay for a month,… Read More »

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New Mexico

Hello, readers.  I’ve been learning about New Spain as occurred in New Mexico.  It’s really uncomfortable because it’s rearranging a lot in my head.  Things I fully believed are not true.  Sometimes learning hurts. Ming sent me this link about Santa Fe de Neuvo Mexico. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Santa_Fe_de_Nuevo_M%C3%A9xico It hurts because it relates to my personal mythology… Read More »

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I like the way you stim

Look at my new hat.  I wore this our second walk on Harford Pier.  We saw an otter out in the water–sometimes it floated on its back to rest, then dove.  I like the way you stim. I wanted to embroider the words on this pink baseball cap, but my needle couldn’t go through the… Read More »

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moonstone beach

We went to Moonstone beach, and it was my first time seeing the ocean in two years, since before my mom died.  You know I was in the desert, those two years. This trip to my homeland is no joyride!  But I do like to find joy everywhere.  This trip is for healing, feeling, facing… Read More »

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the kind of fun where you cry a lot

“Will you be extra gentle with me and give me extra hugs today and let me need you more?” I asked Ming. “Yes,” he said. “Thank you!” I said.  I was crying on his back as he was waking up.  We were lying in bed, and I was getting his shoulder wet with tears. If… Read More »

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here in California

When I graduated from college, a former teacher from high school gave me an album by Kate Wolf as a gift, and I had never heard it. He was apologetic, hoping it was not too country for me. This song “Here In California” always has stood out to me as beautifully true about love, but… Read More »