Hello, reader. How you doing? Commitment requires energy, and not everyone has it. I’m glad Ming and I are signed up for love. Our chosen family member asked me what I mean when I say it’s work, keeping a spot for someone. I mean commitment requires energy. Relationship matters to me and is a big… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? I love how apology transforms energy. This is part two to a post from last month called “what apology is for.” I’ve been thinking about magic words, like “thank you” and “I’m sorry.” Magic words play with trust and power, social concepts that I think about all day. Love… Read More »
“I have too much energy in my head, most of the time,” I said. “When I make art, it helps get some of the energy out, and then I feel better.” It was circle time at the end of our free queer grief art therapy class. A transwoman seated to my left nodded like she… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you today? This is how I look inside when anyone calls Ming “sir.” We were at a Thai place we visit often. It’s next to the flower shop. The worker gave Ming the check and called him “sir.” It was yuck. Ming is not a man. Ming should wear his “he… Read More »
“Will you pray for my head?” I asked Ming. “Can you put your hands on my head and pray for me?” “Yes,” he said. He touched my head. “I pray that your head can think the good thoughts.” “Wait,” I said. “That’s not what I want you to pray for my head.” “I pray that… Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? I was having some trouble with my throat chakra. It can feel stuffed up. What words did I need to say, that I swallowed to keep fake peace for my survival? When did I clam up, to protect myself or someone else? What truths did I pretend did not exist,… Read More »
Hello, some amazing things have been happening lately. Day after day, I feel like they’re getting buried in the pile of amazing things, as more amazing things happen, undocumented. Many will be forgotten. So I would like list some here, for you and for me. amazing things list We swam in the salt water pool… Read More »
I have a deal with my body–I give her some basic things, and she gives me the ability to function. Before, I thought that caring for my body was a waste of time, a tedious chore. I wanted to do the minimum. Now I understand that caring for my body is a sacred pleasure, and… Read More »
Hello, we recorded the bumblebee song. We recorded it before, years ago. Originally we wrote it in 2013, in Mt Shasta the town, and we sang it for years with my nibblings and my mom. It was a family song, good for any age of person. My community member loaned me his USB microphone for… Read More »
I was talking to my friend about sexuality. I told her how my queerness is like a sparkle. energy My queerness and sexuality are part of my energy, spirit, life force–part of my body and my entire being. My sexuality is part of what moves me through the world. So even if what I’m doing… Read More »