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what withdrawal feels like

“You have no idea what withdrawal feels like,” I told Ming.  We were headed toward home–I’d asked if we could go out for smoothies, then a walk at the park right there.  My pumpkin smoothie was delicious. “I’m sorry you feel despair,” Ming said. “It’s not despair,” I said.  “It’s not just being sad, but… Read More »

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altered state

I had an experience where I went into a mentality different from my usual and got a message from my mom.  It was an altered state, like when people use mushrooms, LSD, peyote, fasting, or holotropic breathing to enter an altered state.  Or psychosis, delusions, visions, or other mental health experiences that are common for… Read More »

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Jamaican punch

“Jamaican punch?” I asked.  We were driving home from the snow cone shop.  I had my usual banana snowcone with vanilla ice cream inside.  “Jamaicans I’ve known are usually too high to punch you.” “What about Jamaican rum punch?” he asked. “Well, rum punch.  That’s an entirely different matter,” I said. I don’t drink, smoke… Read More »

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needle exchange

A friend did harm reduction needle exchange in the Central Valley of California.  I enjoyed seeing this video of his work there. I’d heard of needle exchange but didn’t know much about it.  This video helped me learn a little about the materials given and collected, that it could happen in a park, how police… Read More »

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jonesing

  “What does jonesing feel like?” Ming asked.  I had a hard day, a wretched suffering day, then a good day.  Then a so-so day turned wretched, then back to so so.  Getting off a psych med. I lost my joy and my ability to make decisions.  I had already been having a distorted sense… Read More »