Self-hate as motivation has never worked, for me. For anything, that I can recall. I made a video of myself dancing, which I’d never done before. It was partially in response to a youtube troll saying something mean to me about my body. When I read his mean comment, I thought of some snappy comebacks… Read More »
I used to hate my tummy, back when I thought being fat was bad. I believed I had a responsibility to try to thin myself, and I carried a ton of shame. Now that I know weight doesn’t determine health, and health doesn’t determine value, I love my tummy. What a good tummy I have! … Read More »
“Is that too great a burden to bury?” I asked Ming. Then I laughed and laughed. Getting old is wild. On Saturday, a friend I hadn’t seen in more than a year asked, “Why is your hair turning gray?” I love being 44, who I am, my age, and all I’ve been through, to get… Read More »
“You wanna hear this book with me?” I asked Ming. I’m reading a book Dancing in the Streets with my friend up in Canada. She’s reading it for a class, and knows the subject matter interests me. It was sweet, she invited me to be her book buddy! The book is about group ecstatic states–Dancing… Read More »
“Example cats,” I said. I was thinking about making cat sculptures / toys of cats I’ve loved. The now invisible made visible. “Is that like thunder cats?” Ming asked. “Thunder cats–I know what you’re talking about. A cartoon–they were like cats, but like people, in these colorful space suits? Did they have a ring? Or… Read More »
Hey, I was thinking about dance. That video I made and shared, about ecstatic dance, was a good experience for me. I like finding new ways to communicate my truths. I got some appreciative responses. Ecstatic dance is free, spontaneous dance anarchy. As for regular dances, I wish there was a traditional dance of my… Read More »
I made a video about ecstatic dance as embodied healing, what it is, how it helps me. I posted it on youtube. Maybe you would like to learn why ecstatic dance is so important to me. Here’s the blurb I wrote to summarize. Ecstatic dance is my favorite embodied healing modality. It helps me love… Read More »
Hey, I was ecstatic dancing outside to my youtube dance playlist. I was wearing no shirt–I wore a sports bra. It’s ok to exercise, wearing a sports bra, so I hear. But I never did it before. I walked outside in a skirt and bra, which I had never done before. Felt vulnerable and slightly… Read More »
Sports mean nothing to me, nowadays. I like movement, but not competition. But I’m thinking what sports meant to me, before. dance My mom sent me to jazzercise when I was a little kid. Does this still exist? Wow, it still does exist! https://www.jazzercise.com I liked dancing to peppy music on a mat. The… Read More »
Sunday I danced more ecstatic dance. I went the whole hour this time, and I felt I could go for another couple hours. A little foot pain, but my knees are great! I dance on a mat, a squishy mat. Smart, eh. Then I played my favorite song to dance to, on my own. It… Read More »