“Those are some incredible fears. How long you been working on those fears, Laura-Marie?” Ming was talking to me while I took a shower. “Do you mean those specific fears? Or all of my fears?” I asked. “All of them,” Ming said. “Mmmm… probably since I was born. Or actually before I was born,” I… Read More »
“Stop worrying about what other people think,” is common advice I’ve been told many times. I want to write about my experience because the ideas are bigger than just you and me. disabled I’m a fat, disabled person who’s heard voices all my life, and I can’t do some commonplace things. But I can do… Read More »
Hello, reader friend. How you doing? I want to tell you how I stopped hating myself. It’s been a journey. Self-hate is an addictive process, and I’m not going to live there anymore. I’ve written about it before, but I have more ideas. If you’re in a place where you part time hate yourself, or… Read More »
Hello, reader. How you doing? I saw a video about some displaced Mexican people embroidering maps. It’s beautiful and sad. The Spanish as spoken in the video is comprehensible to me. The video is short but made me think a lot. I’m thinking about home maps art vs craft memories history who we preserve history… Read More »
Hey, reader. How are you doing? Ming and I are recently home from a big road trip. Feels good to write about it and process transformative experiences. There’s a question I still have, now that Ming and I are home. Is California real? I mean that question like another big question I’m asking lately– are… Read More »
“It’s not pointless suffering,” I told Ming. “It’s part of a process.” Ming and I were on a trip to the Astoria area so I could worship the Columbia River, rest by the beach, and go to my favorite beeswax magical candle shop. Wow, what a trip. We also got delicious water from a forest… Read More »
Hey, reader. Are you radical? That word has bad connotation to some. But you know I do radical mental health, one of my main projects. Radical is a favorite concept and word. Likewise Ming is radical. We’re buddies on that. Luckily almost all of our values are shared: our relationship has such longevity partly for… Read More »
Hey, reader. How’s tricks? Where are you comfortable and feel like yourself? I’ve been thinking about city vs rural vs wild. Backing up, I could ask: Are you ever comfortable and feel like yourself? I’ve said before that I’m only comfortable when I’m alone. But that’s not true. With Ming and a few other people,… Read More »
Dear sweetheart, I’m sorry if someone called you lazy. Asking for help is sacred. I want to be respectful and a safe person to ask for help. Also a safe person to say no to. The idea of being lazy doesn’t worry me too much because I’m disabled, and I opt out of capitalism productivity… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? I’m a radical mental health person–being real about emotions and inner life is everything to me. Relatedly, addicts are my people. I think a lot about self-harm, substance use, addiction, and harm reduction. What am I doing that’s fucking up my life, and how can I do less of… Read More »