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sexual trauma and dentistry

Content warning: mention of sexual trauma and dentistry Hello, how are you doing?  I want to speak of sexual trauma and dentistry because it’s a great example of how people need different things, and bodies differ.  Shame is not a good motivator for all people, and my outlier needs didn’t come about from choices I… Read More »

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panic attack

Yesterday I had maybe the gnarliest panic attack I’ve ever had.  Wow, it was an altered state.  So powerful, like–I don’t need to use drugs, ever.  I went to another dimension: terror world.  I lost part of myself. Thought I was dying. Afterward, I was amazed that I survived. I’ve had a panic attack now… Read More »

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I get to keep them

Hey, great news.  I had a special mammogram and breast ultrasound.  Then a doctor looked at my test results, and the doctor says they’re normal.  There’s no cause for concern.  The breast pain and other issue are not worrisome, not cancer.  So glad I get to keep them. Yay!  Breasts are here to stay!  When… Read More »

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pain

I had a headache that lasted five days, off and on.  One afternoon I was lying in bed in the half-dark–I was in so much pain.  All I could do was hold my head and talk to myself.  “You’re ok, Laura-Marie.  I have faith in you.  I believe in you,” over and over, hundreds of… Read More »

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anti-gratitude list

Anti-gratitude list for today–thank you for hearing me.  Back to our regularly scheduled positivity tomorrow. Other people made choices that affect me a lot, without consulting me. Blame / shame that doesn’t even make sense.  Like doctors blaming me for health issues without knowing anything about my life.  Assumptions they make leading to me being… Read More »

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how to have worth

Hey, what do you think?  It’s September.  My life feels like a patch of briars.  I’m trying to get comfortable.  Unfortunately, I’m made of human being. I brush past the cat’s claw acacia and find out why it’s called that, as thorns catch my clothes.  Oops, I liked those clothes. I keep listening to this… Read More »

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anxiety anger

I asked my darling to guestblog for me, first time on this site, and he said yes. Then I hogged my computer much of the day. So here I am at 8:15pm, beginning my morning post as he sleeps in bed. Been thinking about how anger and anxiety are very similar, for me. I’ve said… Read More »