Content warning: mention of sexual trauma and dentistry Hello, how are you doing? I want to speak of sexual trauma and dentistry because it’s a great example of how people need different things, and bodies differ. Shame is not a good motivator for all people, and my outlier needs didn’t come about from choices I… Read More »
Yesterday I had maybe the gnarliest panic attack I’ve ever had. Wow, it was an altered state. So powerful, like–I don’t need to use drugs, ever. I went to another dimension: terror world. I lost part of myself. Thought I was dying. Afterward, I was amazed that I survived. I’ve had a panic attack now… Read More »
Hey, great news. I had a special mammogram and breast ultrasound. Then a doctor looked at my test results, and the doctor says they’re normal. There’s no cause for concern. The breast pain and other issue are not worrisome, not cancer. So glad I get to keep them. Yay! Breasts are here to stay! When… Read More »
I had a headache that lasted five days, off and on. One afternoon I was lying in bed in the half-dark–I was in so much pain. All I could do was hold my head and talk to myself. “You’re ok, Laura-Marie. I have faith in you. I believe in you,” over and over, hundreds of… Read More »
Anti-gratitude list for today–thank you for hearing me. Back to our regularly scheduled positivity tomorrow. Other people made choices that affect me a lot, without consulting me. Blame / shame that doesn’t even make sense. Like doctors blaming me for health issues without knowing anything about my life. Assumptions they make leading to me being… Read More »
Hey, what do you think? It’s September. My life feels like a patch of briars. I’m trying to get comfortable. Unfortunately, I’m made of human being. I brush past the cat’s claw acacia and find out why it’s called that, as thorns catch my clothes. Oops, I liked those clothes. I keep listening to this… Read More »
I asked my darling to guestblog for me, first time on this site, and he said yes. Then I hogged my computer much of the day. So here I am at 8:15pm, beginning my morning post as he sleeps in bed. Been thinking about how anger and anxiety are very similar, for me. I’ve said… Read More »