Hello, reader. How are you? I’ve been thinking about shame. What is shame, and why do we feel it? Is it ever helpful? I see people feeling shame who don’t need it. The shame drains their energy like a hole in a bucket. Then the people who do great wrongs are not feeling shame. Hmm–why… Read More »
Hello, reader. How are you doing? In the recent disability justice, fat liberation skillshare that I led with my community, I mentioned that I’m disabled by capitalism. I have various differences and diagnoses, and they deeply affect what I can do. But the actual problem isn’t with me–I live a wonderful disabled life, more happy… Read More »
My friend asked my how I feel affirmation. What a good question. I wrote them an email about it, and I thought I would expand my answer to tell you also, dear reader. Maybe you would like to know how I feel affirmation too. Affirmation feels like validation. Yeah, I need validation from everywhere. Ming,… Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? I asked Ming to take my picture with this horrific Halloween sculpture. Not sure why I asked for that! But I’m glad Ming did that for me, because seeing the picture makes me think about my relationship with danger. Does it creep you out? If you know me well, maybe… Read More »
Hello, how are you doing? We’ve been going to cemeteries lately to honor the dead. Tis the season! We visited the ashes of Ming’s ancestors in Oakland, California. content warning: death and more death First we went to a cemetery with mausoleum. I didn’t get pics of that. But we walked around. Ming told me… Read More »
Hello, do you have a bucket list? I used to think they were silly. Then I tried making one, and it was fun to dream. For a long time, going to Manzanar with Ming was on my bucket list. big map We were in Beatty on a brief getaway, resting elsewhere. It was our last… Read More »
Hello, can I show you some green things? I thought quanyin looked extra pretty surrounded by blooming beans. These are the little kind of favas. The beans came from a farmers market at my homeland years ago. Ming thought the package was no longer ok, so he tossed the beans into the garden, like a… Read More »
Hello, readers. I’ve been learning about New Spain as occurred in New Mexico. It’s really uncomfortable because it’s rearranging a lot in my head. Things I fully believed are not true. Sometimes learning hurts. Ming sent me this link about Santa Fe de Neuvo Mexico. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Santa_Fe_de_Nuevo_M%C3%A9xico It hurts because it relates to my personal mythology… Read More »
Hey, I did a self-forgiveness ritual for Thanksgiving. I don’t see relatives anymore, and we had a special feast with the Las Vegas Catholic Worker a few days early. So we’re free to make holidays special however we want. I wrote this self-forgiveness ritual last year, but I don’t think I ever performed it. So… Read More »
When Ming and I were at winco recently, I saw some pretty chiles, so we bought two, and I roasted them. Roasting chiles is the best smell in the world. I wish I could give you that smell, reader. Instead I can give you pictures. Smells like home, good times with my mom. The smell… Read More »