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what I saw

Today we went to Fry’s after work to buy some tapes because we want to make some tapes for Jeff because he only has a tape player in his car. And like the people who don’t have cell phones, we’re the people who don’t have a CD burner anyway. At Fry’s, I saw a bumper… Read More »

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mutant tree CSET

Today and tomorrow I’m scoring CSET at mutant tree. The new thing about it is that Erik is doing it too, for the first time, so I get to adjust to having him there for the walks I take on my breaks and for lunch. He will be anxious today, like anyone would, starting work… Read More »

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moth

Some nice tee-shirts here. http://www.threadless.com/product/61/Fluttering

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problem, self-esteem

This morning my DSL wasn’t working. I panicked like an addict, tearing through drawers for the installation CD and disturbing Erik’s ability to sit. When I act just like my dad, it scares me. I called tech support. The worker said, “My name is Adam, maam.” I’m like, “Yeah right your name is Adam! It’s… Read More »

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anniversary

Today’s our four-year anniversary. Yay!!!! We get to go out to dinner and buy flowers. Last night we slept on our new bed for the first time. It was luxurious. Last night was the annual meeting. Swamis from Berkeley, San Francisco, and Portland came. I’m quite taken with the Portland swami (this was the first… Read More »

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bed bed bed

We got a bed by non-traditional means. I felt leery of it, and it sat unused for more than a week. But yesterday Erik set it up in the bedroom. I love to lie on it starting out the window at the buds on the sycamore tree outside. They’re so beautiful when they move in… Read More »

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better

I have a new lease on life. I think it’s a one-year lease. There’s this cheese I love. It’s organic sharp cheddar from Trader Joe’s, white. I thought it might be too strong for pizza, but it’s not. We did about three-fourths mozzeralla, one-fourth this sharp cheddar and wanted more. So next time I’m doing… Read More »

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mala

This morning I was holding my mala when it broke. It’s hard not to see something like that as symbolic. Religion’s confusing. Erik says it’s not good to idealize anybody. But religion seems to be all about idealizing somebody. Anyway, I could tie a knot myself or ask someone else to fix it.

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grief

I have been… *lying in bed for hours right between sleep and being awake, listening to my voices–today one said, “I smell like water” *monitoring the construction–they move mounds of different dirts from one side of the lot to the other *listening to the same Innocence Mission CD over and over again–Glow (the yellow one)… Read More »

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on the rez: Linnea

I had this student I loved the best. Her name was Linnea. (It wasn’t.) She was a third grader and smart as a whip but with ADHD or some such brilliant-person affliction undiagnosed. She was the one who said she was allergic to cake and then pretended she was sneezing. Getting her to do her… Read More »