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all amaranth, all the time

Woe betide the human who doth love me, made to pose with amaranth, till death by vibrant sidewalk flower. Yeah, where did that come from.  A previous century, I guess.  All amaranth, all the time.  Is it overwhelmingly beautiful, or is it just me? “Would you kneel down right there?  That’s a bend, not a… Read More »

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the mystery of love

mama Fall without my mom is pretty ridiculous.  Today feels like the first real fall day, and I’m crying, that she is not on earth with me.  It feels really stupid, like too much to ask.  How could I have fall without her? The coolness, sweaters.  The smell of pencils being sharpened.  Trees losing their… Read More »

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late guestblogger love

  My darling was late submitting his guestblogger post.  Here it is, from a few days ago, still rather fresh. *** Today is the deathaversary of Laura-Marie’s dad. Our hero is saddened. So Guest blogger here. Yesterday I spent a good chunk of time cleaning out old papers and files. Found lots of stuff lost.… Read More »

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ancestor bird

My stomach hurt, and I hadn’t eaten anything weird or new.  I have these pills with enzymes in them, that I can take.  So I took one and did some stretches I like. I tip a little, to each side, as I stretch.  My fundus is where my ulcer was / is, which is a… Read More »

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celebration lessons

“Life is too varied,” I told Ming as he drove us home, past a gas station and casinos for locals.  “So easy sometimes, and so hard.  It’s confusing!  Like–will the real life please stand up?  I don’t believe they can be the same thing.” blood draw I had a fasting blood draw in the morning. … Read More »

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more I’m grateful for: the whole package

I’m going to get to more I’m grateful for.  But first some anguish. delivery issues Some delivery people can’t handle delivering packages to our house.  They assume a dog is in our yard, so they won’t open the gate.  To the contrary–loose dogs roam our neighborhood, and the fence is to keep dogs out, not… Read More »

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favorite language

favorite language I have this SQL dress.  The crisscrossed lines on it are SQL.  It’s fun to explain what SQL is to people who don’t know what it is. It’s also fun to read the google suggested questions and revel in their beautiful English Language Learner style. ELL is my favorite language.  SQL, not so… Read More »

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here in California

When I graduated from college, a former teacher from high school gave me an album by Kate Wolf as a gift, and I had never heard it. He was apologetic, hoping it was not too country for me. This song “Here In California” always has stood out to me as beautifully true about love, but… Read More »

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what life is

rice facts “Yeah, there’s more rice.  A crescent of rice.  You can help yourself.  Or I can get it for you.” He walked to the kitchen to get some rice.  “It’s funny–no one talks about that.  How if you make some rice, and there’s a layer at the bottom of the pot.  So you take… Read More »

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death by mountain lion

Sometimes a thing you’re scared of can be a thing you want, or vice versa.  They can turn into each other. I was afraid of death by mountain lion for so long.  First in Orange County during grad school, more than twenty years ago, at a huge park with copious mountain lion warning signs. Then… Read More »