pray

“Hey, dear!  When you’re done, I want to pray with you!” I said to Ming.  He was taking a shower.  I popped into the bathroom to use the toilet before bed.

“Ok, I’m almost done,” Ming said.

“Good,” I said.

Then he came out of the shower.  I was listening to weird chimey sounds that help me feel calm and safe.

family

Shared prayer is a nice thing about me and Ming.  He is a great family member.  We are anarchists but very religious.  I pray all the time.  Ming is a great sport–he’s up for many prayer styles.

I told Ming I wanted to pray for my body.  I asked him if he would hold my hands and repeat my sentences, but change each sentence to about me.  It was a pronoun thing.  He agreed.

“Holy mother, mother of God,” I said.

“Holy mother, mother of God,” Ming said.

“Thank you for my sacred, beautiful body,” I said.

“Thank you for your sacred, beautiful body,” Ming said.

“Thank you for all the ways my body works,” I said.

“Thank you for all the ways your body works,” Ming said.

“Please bless my health,” I said.

“Please bless your health,” Ming said.

It went on like this, more specific.  Ming is helpful, the way he would echo what I said.  I felt a very supported feeling.  He shows up for me so beautifully.

pronouns

Speaking of pronouns, I’m keeping she her for now but taking on a ki kin.  I wanna do like this: ki kin kins kins kinself.  So I don’t need the g, but otherwise, this page lays it out great.

I’d been thinking about taking a they, but it didn’t seem quite right for me.  I know one person who uses kin.  Ki is a fat liberation hero of mine, a writer, and quite a musician also.

So I think I am not exactly a cis lady anymore.  Please welcome me to transland.  I don’t believe I was ever really a cis lady, but I pass as one so well.  So here we are.  I pray for all the trans people, including possibly me.