sign

There’s this empty sign, one street over.  By a church or former church.  I was taking a walk by myself in the early morning.  Wishing Ming was with me–he went to serve at the Worker.

The sign I looked up at.  I love this sign.  I like to pretend it’s a message from God, a message of nothing.  Blank beauty.  Silence sign supreme.

I heard a quiet clicking noise.  Wow, why is that sign clicking, I wondered.  It has wires.  Made no sense, that electricity was passing through them.  The sign was long unused.

Then I realized it was the breeze.  A wire was moving in the slight wind, back and forth, bumping an edge.  Ok, that makes more sense.  I took a picture.

But I felt even more the sign was telling me something, in the rosy dawn light.  A grand message of nothing.

erratic guy

I continued on my way and walked home.  A guy who seemed erratic in his body language was on the street also, and I had the feeling he might interact with me in an unwanted way.  No one else was around.

He could pass by me silently, yell something, talk to me, or run to me and punch me to hurt me.

It was a weird moment.   I’ve never been physically attacked by a stranger.  Felt uncomfortable to realize, “Today might be the day.”  But the stranger passed by, and I walked down Bartlett past some familiar trash, feelings my feelings.

weird clouds

A week ago, there were these weird wavy clouds in the sky.  A few local friends posted cloud pics on instagram, I later saw.

I walked outside that morning to the driveway and said, “Holy shit.  I never saw clouds like that before.  What happened?”

They did not feel like regular clouds.  More like some sky experiment gone awry.

They were to the west.  But the sky to the east was more conventional wonderful amazing.

new zine

I made a new zine.  It’s functionally ill 31.  It’s about my social differences, disability, community, love.

There had been a lot of material for a long time.  I needed to sort, edit, and group the little essays and lists in a way that made sense.  And I made some weird art.

I’ll copy it soon and announce it better then.  Love to the readers.