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jerky

do you feel like a jerk when you eat jerky? i asked Ming. no, he said.  we are driving home from an impromptu river visit. do you feel like a fun guy, when you eat mushroom jerky? yes, he said. do you feel like something’s fishy, when you eat salmon jerky? no, he said. do… Read More »

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traumatic brain injury

“Is it ok if I like Traumatic Brain Injury people more than I like non-Traumatic Brain Injury people?” I asked Ming. “Yes,” he said. I love asking Ming ridiculous questions, and he is so good at answering them. “Good, because I like you best of all!” I said. the wall There’s genes, there’s brain waves,… Read More »

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sauerkraut

Oh, friends.  I’m laughing because I searched my own blog for sauerkraut and found this post.  It’s about when Ming and I got a huge bag of shredded cabbage at a church food giveaway and made Way Too Much Sauerkraut.  The post is from 2013 and can be found here.  https://www.listeningtothenoiseuntilitmakessense.com/2013/05/13/sauerkraut-win/ I’m laughing about that… Read More »

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sunning

I’ve been dreaming again.  Wow, thank you, mind, for handing me these weird-ass movie kinda things I don’t have to pay for.  I appreciate it, I think! Yesterday I got a lot of sun.  It was amazing–sun bath, sunning.  Midday, the sun felt different–harsh.  Like it had changed from the winter sun to the summer… Read More »

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poetry memes

fancy lemonade “Wow, is this all for me, or to share?” I asked Ming.  He’d poured me some fancy lemonade, two inches of it, in a cute little mason jar. “All for you!” he said. “Wow, extravagant!” I said.  “Straight from the lemon teat.  Or the sugar teat.”  I sipped it.  “Uh, did you shake… Read More »

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how to survive medication withdrawal

I know a thing or two, about how to survive medication withdrawal.  I’ve done it a few times!  Jonesing is wretched, but there are lots of behaviors that can help. This is a list from an email I sent Ming, recently.  An internal memo of the Ming and Laura-Marie Mini-fam! list of how to survive… Read More »

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rainbow pouch

I cleaned out my rainbow pouch this morning–felt great.  I removed some loose dried rosemary that had been in the bottom of it, taken from the garden of someone I loved and never should have! Oh, sweet Laura-Marie, duped by charmers, over and over again.  Nothing like holding hands and committing–hook, line, and sinker, to… Read More »

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jonesing

  “What does jonesing feel like?” Ming asked.  I had a hard day, a wretched suffering day, then a good day.  Then a so-so day turned wretched, then back to so so.  Getting off a psych med. I lost my joy and my ability to make decisions.  I had already been having a distorted sense… Read More »