crazy

I made a meme about crazy.  Drake seems pretty reprehensible in his “Hotline Bling” video.  I laugh and laugh, at Drake and the messed up, misogynist things he says to the addressed, in this song.  He’s so transparently trying to shame her into being loyal to him–staying home and not changing–when it’s clear, she’s escaped his orbit.  What an ass!

“You make me feel like I did you wrong,” is classic asshole guilt tripping, gaslighty dude bullshit.  Yeah, if she “makes you feel like” you did wrong, probably that’s because you did wrong?  Complaining about someone trying to hold you accountable is such a dick move.

The passport part is kinda creative–running out of pages in your passport.  I like that line, the visual of it.

“Used to be a good girl” is the part that makes me laugh the most.  Like she owes that to him, or anyone.  What a load of shit.

 

crazy

But the meme isn’t really about Drake–it’s about crazy.  A stranger told me I would be fine, about my mom’s death.  Afterward I was telling Ming about it.  “I’ve never been fine–I’ll never be fine.  I don’t aspire to fine.  Not fine about my mom dying–not fine about anything.  I am not a fine person.”

For me crazy is about vibrant aliveness.  Yeah, it’s possible to burn too bright and do harm–I know about that.  But I think after 44 years, I have an ok grasp on how to care for myself, mostly.

mad studies

Speaking of crazy, there’s a new Master’s degree program in Mad Studies, over in Scotland at Queen Margaret University.  Pretty exciting.

https://www.qmu.ac.uk/study-here/postgraduate-study/2021/msc-pgdip-pgcert-mad-studies/