I made this meme this morning because this quote speaks to me. I’ve experienced the spiritual pain of knowing what I needed to do and not doing it.
It makes me think of how when I attended my first Sacred Peace Walk, I learned that the community I’d longed for could actually exist. So I needed to devote my life to that. Ming and I left a good life in Sacramento to come to Las Vegas and take a gamble on an even better life. It worked.
This rainbow over Freedom House the other day reminds me of the goodness of the life I have here. I feel God’s blessing, that she put me here for a reason. I find new small reasons all the time, but there is a big overarching reason: I’m doing the service here that I want to do. Connecting to people, experiencing soul-nourishing fun, building community. Healing myself, building a family with Ming, encouraging strength and resilience for adventures to come.
I was so anxious yesterday I could barely live. Then today I woke up feeling good. Doing small things to contribute to a bigger dream. Reaching out to friends, staying connected, making plans. Feels wonderful.
Hmm, I sound idealistic today. J asked me to water her seedlings over the weekend. Sounds good. I asked for instructions.